will update in real time.
awake at 7am. i've been noticing the grind from "necessary talking only" since yesterday, even though it's only beginning today. and the proviso is "when practical", so it's only internal. still.
quiet until 9:30, then a flurry of discussion. strange how much it takes out of me.
feels twitchy. work is providing some extra sticking points; it is very difficult to just be quiet or to just focus. also trying to decide if i'm going to count looking at my phone as "unnecessary". maybe the rule will be to only count it if i'm not doing something directly related to communicating a thing or completing a task.
visit with a new dentist. it feels strange to make the choice to "allow" myself to speak, to give myself permission to just interact as needed. some anxiety rising up while discussing some necessary and expensive (monetarily and physically) procedures. a little guilt as i pull my phone out after leaving the office to shoot a quick message to work. the trip in both directions is interrupted on the ballard bridge by a boat passing.
